I always figured that most of my thoughts and nearly all of my feelings could not be trusted, because of my age. I'm a teenager, so what I feel/think is heavily influenced by hormones, or whatever, and most likely incorrect/false. I think this also, because when you read about or see something concerning teenagers, the things they worry about are silly, to say the least, like: friends, girls/boys they like, their appearance, their popularity, stuff like that.

Even though it's not really possible to escape these thoughts/feelings, whenever I 'busted' myself on doing/thinking/feeling something silly and typically teenager-ish, I was able to set it aside and be done with it. Of course, I realize it's highly possible that by thinking I put it aside, I started to believe in some of these false feelings.

In any case, I'm starting to doubt. Maybe it's because I'm 18 and I should be largely past it, or maybe it's not. Whatever the cause may be, I'm not so sure anymore if everything I feel/think is false and should be treated with caution. Sure, it might all be influenced by hormones, or whatever, but does that make them less reliable? After all, they're still your feelings. They're not any less real than your feelings before this age.

Some of us think it's silly to think and be worried about your appearance, for example, and some of us think it's rather important to look good. To be honest, I can't really say who has got the better logic there. Just because I don't really care about my appearance (even though I'm a bit idle), doesn't mean I shouldn't. If your appearance really doesn't matter, then why does the doubt even exist? Enough of that though, it's just an example.

Was I wrong to begin with, to think that I couldn't trust my own senses? Is it really okay and maybe even good to follow your feelings/thoughts anyway? Or should I just wait a tad longer until I'm more certain that I've left that period behind and wait until I can trust myself again? Or is it not even possible to escape any of these feelings/thoughts in the first place and have I been abiding them even though I was thinking/hoping I wasn't?

Edit: After reading through my previous journal entries, I figured I should add the following: I was never able to put aside my clearly teenage-problems when they were related to a girl, even though I knew full-heartedly and fully realized that they were typically the problems of a teenager.